Conversations with myself

And it’s funny because
You could be pricing Christmas popuri in April and think of him

One of those days
that only poetry could make sense of
When you don’t know what you mean but you know you mean it

My thoughts collect like raindrops on the car window
Like tear drops on your face
Like chemo in an IV
In your veins
Until they plummet to their inevitable death

Brush your teeth for way too long
To avoid things you have to be doing, but shouldn’t
And to avoid conversations you need to be having, and don’t

But I like socks
And your hand on my spine,
Knowing everything
By knowing nothing at all

They’re all making it up,
But I’m the only one
who knows it’s fake
And like them, I can’t
feel enough to care

And death is at your doorstep
And it will steal your innocence
But it will not steal your substance

But you are not alone in this,
And you are not alone in this

Timshel, Mumford and Sons

It’s better to feel pain, than nothing at all
The opposite of love’s indifference
So pay attention now, I’m standing on your porch screaming out
And I won’t leave until you come downstairs

So keep your head up, keep your love

Stubborn Love, The Lumineers

So you were never a saint
And I loved in shades of wrong
We learn to live with the pain
Mostly of broken hearts
But this love is raging and wild

And I never saw you coming
And I’ll never be the same again

State of Grace, Taylor Swift

Love’s just a waste of our energy

And this life’s just a waste of our time.
So why don’t we get together?
We could waste everything tonight,
we could waste,
we could waste it all…

Take pictures in your mind of your childhood room.
Memorize what it sounded like when your dad gets home.
Remember the footsteps, remember the words said
And all your little brother’s favorite songs

I just realized everything I have
is someday gonna be gone

Never Grow Up, Taylor Swift

I’m just about to set fire to everything I see

I want you so bad I’ll go back on the things I believe.
There I just said it, I’m scared you’ll forget about me…

Edge of Desire, John Mayer

I only know a thread is loose on my sweater. The more you pull it, the more it lengthens until I completely vanish.

To Be Elsewhere by Hsia Yü

Step out the front door like a ghost
into the fog where no one notices
the contrast of white on white.
And in between the moon and you
the angels get a better view
of the crumbling difference between wrong and right.

Round Here, Counting Crows

So read your books but
stay out late some nights,
some nights

Bruised, Jack’s Mannequin